The Lord saved me July 15, 2003. He brought me out of the gutter my life had become, and made me a new woman. As long as I live, I will never forget the day, the place, and who led me to Him.
At that time, I was 25 years old. I was a single mom, never married, lived with my son's dad. My son was a micro preemie, born at 28 weeks and weighing 1 lb 5oz. He stayed in the NICU for 89 days. During those days, the home life became very strained. His dad became abusive toward me. I was in a deep post partum depression and didn't see any way out. Once my son came home, life grew more stressful in handling a medically fragile newborn, the expectations of doctors and others who didn't deal with micro preemies, and increasing abuse in a very strained relationship.
This went on for around a year and a half, until one night my son's dad tried to suffocate me with a pillow with son in my arms. He stopped, and I took myself and son to the couch to stay. That night, a most gentle, peaceful voice told me it's time to leave, or he would truly kill me. I'd never heard that voice before nor heard it since. I paid heed, and the next morning once son's dad left for work and all others in the home were gone, I packed up the car and took basic necessities for us, and drove away.
My first stop was my cousin's house in the city. She and her husband had a beautiful home and land just outside the city, and that had been a refuge for me in my teen years. She was my adoptive second mom. And, she was a believer. My ex found me there, so it was time to move to a secure shelter in the middle of the city.
Two days later, at the lowest point I had been in my life, my cousin's daughter had me in her dining room, and she talked to me about salvation. It was at her dining table I accepted Christ as Lord and Savior.
The following weeks and months were not easy, as there were many obstacles to overcome being on my own with a sick baby. Old sins crept in and refused to die. But God. He moved in our lives and protected us from things that could have been very bad.
Through time and distance from the life I led before salvation to where I am now, the Lord has done a work in me. The things I used to do, I have zero desire to do. I've grown in faith, grown in love and reverence for my Lord. Through many trials He has come through and shown Himself faithful and true. He's protected from things the enemy would do, chastened me when I've done wrong, and held me close when I've needed comfort.
Twenty years ago my life changed. No regrets. No going back to what I used to be.